Lessons that I've learned

Certain people may waste their time and chances along the way of their lives. Even they realize it, either it is too late or they prefer to have the regrets for the rest of their lives. It is strange enough why does people do not think any possible way to mend it or grab the second chance that is coming. They prefer to give up and just go any way that is provided or easy for them. Of course, they might be afraid to make the first step because they scare of the word, "Fail". Fail can be link to "Pain".
I myself do encounter this problem as well. I'm always try the hardest to make all the people surrounds me to be happy especially all my loved ones. Í'm willingly to do anything to make them happy. No one could ever believe I did it, except the ones who knew me well. I have the difficulty to make certain decisions in my life as I place the consideration of others before myself. I just don't hope my decision may caused the hurt and pain for the people surrounds me as I care for everybody in my life. This is where I caught in my own dillemma. I sacrifice certain important things in my life just to make things easier and happier for other people. All this while, I did not blame anybody or expect any returns except happiness from them.
Until today, I realize this is the wrong way to make a decision. It is important and great to consider other people's feelings first before own, it is more important the decision you made makes you happy. I believe your loved ones should be supportive and understand the decisions you have made regardless it is right or wrong. (This exclude illegal crimes or wrong ethics) You will never know until you make the first move. It's pretty scary if it is wrong as you may fail and pain. However, let us look at the bright side, you will learn your lesson and improve from there. It is never too late to mend your mistakes. (In fact, you have nothing to lose) Once you lost it, there is no way to get it back. You may ended up in misery and regret. Please give yourself a chance. Don't be scare to fail and pain as you may never know things may be turn the other way round. ("Success"and "Sweet")
I'm pretty surprise to my family as I often made drastic falls and drastic changes. I'm glad one thing. Although I turn myself from a princess life to a servant life, they are always being supportive and care about me. Nobody (except family) could understand why I torture myself this way. I'm proud to say, I learn to be tough, strong and I'm going to prove you that nothing is impossible in my life. I don't need you to blame or nag me that I'm wrong, all I want is a respect of my decision. If you are not happy about it, learn to accept it. I'm not afraid anymore to fail and pain as I believe it will brings me to success and sweet.
I will try to understand and tolerate in any possible way that I could, I just can't continue sacrifice certain things in my life anymore. I do not want any regrets in my life for doing it. It's time for the pearl to get out from the shell to see other parts of the world. I plan to go travel at least once a year no matter what happens. (Any planning to join me?)
Dear family, I hope no matter what worst going to happen, what worst decision I'm going to make, I'm just hope you are always understand and support me along the way. Please believe in every decision I made in future, there is a reason of mine for doing it. Please tell mom and dad that I miss them very much. I'll go back once my career over here is going steady. I love you. Other than that, I will share in details with you via email. Thank you in advance for your advice and understanding.

Stay Connected

Sometimes in our lives, we are hardly to stay connected with your friends, relatives or even your loved ones. We seems so near to them, yet so far to be together with them. For certain people, they manage to keep in touch with most people. Have you wondering you are joining which team as above? Did you try to keep in touch with them?
For my case, I'm lucky to stay connected with my siblings, my cousin Ben, and my sweetheart friends via the msn or facebook. At least, I'm still able to chat with them and letting them to know my latest news and life stories in Singapore. Sometimes it's sad enough for unable to keep in touch with my mom and dad whom I love most. I wish I could talk to them, hug them, kiss them and know all about them. I'm really missing them a lot. I'm just able to call them up once in a blue moon due to the expensive phone bills. (Gotta save money as quite broke for the moment) I'm just able to rely on my lovely sisters to update them on my latest stories. I love all of you! I love you, mommy and daddy! (Bro Ben, I miss Aunt Marie too! Send my hugs and kisses to her as well!) I miss the young little ones as well, Joseph, Joshua and Gaby! Muacks Muacks Muacks!
Don't worry my both sisters and couz bro, I'm doing fine here with new friends or I shall say my colleagues for the moment. Of course, I have no problem to communicate with anybody here even for my customers. I met a funny mid-aged couple customer today. They love the way I do my job and how I communicate with them. They are trying to offer me a job, but, I rejected them nicely. Although this job is tough, I still want to go through it as I felt I'm able to learn a lot and experience something different in my life. I don't wanna stop half way through. Back to my colleagues, they are really nice to me. I'm learning from them, yet I'm helping them in a way.

Chatting with my Sis and Bro: "Your little princess sister here flowing the Liew Family's Blood and Yap Family's Blood. I'm very humble and respect people first before I require people to respect me. Of course I know you do worry about me because I treat people very nice until I forgot to keep a safe side of my own. I will notice it. Ok? I do admit I'm quite blur (I know you will say very blur) and clumsy sometimes (always for you, right?)...hahaha! (I can hear you talking sis)I know, I know, I'll change it! You gonna be surprise as well because fyi your princess here is unable to take care of the beauty. No time and no chance to dress well, nail medicure, hair treatment and lots of beauty stuffs...(you'll know the best). Just like you, so sloppy. I can't wait to go back office and be my princess life...hahaha!
However, I'm really miss all of you so much! Love you always!

Bad Luck or Bad Day?

Most of the people who face problems or obtacles, they assume it is a bad luck for them. In fact, they are just having a bad day. Some of the people who is really bad luck thought they are just having the bad day. How could this happen? I know the behind reason of their thinking actually. For the first scenario, they are hoping a better luck is coming in order for them to get rid of the bad day. As for the second scenario, they will think positively that their good luck is coming with great day after their worst nightmare. I understand that because I go through myself personally for both.
Back to few days, I was stalked by a Bangladesh/ Indonesia Guy when I was way back to my house around 12am (I'm just finish working, poor thing!). There is no one waiting at the bus station which leads me to walk a distance back to my apartment. The guy was following me with the same speed as I do (I ran, he ran, I walked faster, he walked faster). It's pretty scary to me actually until I'm lucky enough to meet an uncle was looking at the guy who followed me which leads the guy to slow down. This is the best chance I ran as fast as possible even though my leg was pain and whole body is damn tired. I manage to get back safely.
Today, I felt tired and sleepy the whole day. I don't denied that I'm pretty much blurred to almost everything. I was so busy handling few customers at the same time until I almost forgot to get the drinks for them. However, I'm lucky to have my colleagues to remind and ask me on the serving drinks. (When you be humble to learn and respect people, people will help you initially) Thank God, the customers didn't complained or angry after I apologize with a big sweet smile! That is not the worst part. When I go back to my bag, I realize I lost my purse. I was panicked, shocked and devastating the same time. I was wondering did I left it anywhere or anyone touched my bag? I believe I might be clumsy as today as my soul and my mind left my body today.
I went to the Information Counter to have some luck on anyone who is kind enough to surrender my purse. Luckily, the lady asked me to approach the security office as they received a lost purse today. I ran to security office praying that is my purse with all my important documents such as IC and Employment Pass are there safely kept. I'm half relieved when I'm able to recognize my purse and all my documents are there. Unfortunately, it doesn't left any penny inside of my purse. I still felt the thunderstorm above my head with the sad violin playing surround me that particular time. I was wondering how could I survive without any money left until my salary on the 7th August...I felt so sad and devastating. I just pay an expensive lesson. I don't hope to hear any finger pointing advise. (for example, "Why you are so clumsy?".) It is because I know and I learn my lesson. I felt the pain and hurt.
I take some time to calm down myself and try to get back my proffesional ethics in order for me to continue my works. I'm still able to serve all the approached customers with smiles and put the things aside out of my mind. After I finished my works, I start to feel back the pain and hurt. I have to blame myself for being so clumsy and blurred. I'm really angry at myself. The only way to console myself is, at least I manage to have the purse and all my important documents back. I just pay a life caution lesson. Some people told me I'm just bad luck, as for me, yes it's bad luck to lost my purse in a bad day, this is the end of the unfortunate events. Luck is still surrounds me.

Life In Singapore and Malaysia

Most of the people who came to Singapore are not willingly to go back to Malaysia by comparing the lifestyle between both countries. However, it's a different story for my own. Undeniable the transportation over here in Singapore are pretty much convenient compare to Malaysia. Even there are lots of shopping mall all around waiting for you to shop and to hang out especially for those who loves shopping all the time. Anything you wish to buy, just name it, you'll got it in any shopping mall. Bear in mind...careful of your spending spree...
I'm a very simple lady with a simple lifestyle. I'm still prefer to stay in Malaysia for one good reason, I feel home. Maybe all my loved ones, are all in Malaysia especially my mom and dad. Of course, my family(my bro Benedict,that includes of you...haha!) and my hubby. I miss all of you so much!I understand why the people feel so difficult to go back Malaysia, there is one good reason for me too, it's hard to find a job in Malaysia with higher income that I could earn here in Singapore. By the time I go back, it seems great. The feeling is just so great. (Muahaha!) Of course, my turn has yet to come. I believe it is coming soon!
It's really convenient to go out in Singapore with the proper and adequate public transport with sharp timing of trains.Malaysia transportation still has a long way to compete. However, I'm lucky to have family and my hubby to fetch me to go out in Malaysia. One more thing I love about Malaysia, less likely I need to walk and share transports with lots of people. Hahaha! More privacy as I can sleep and relax in the car while my loved ones are driving. Yeah...I miss the moments.
All the Malaysians who stay in Singapore like I do, all of them definately share one thing in common. We all miss the cheap DVDs for movies, TVB drama, and songs. (Hahaha, pai seh to say this but it is true!) To add plus point to Malaysia, the house or condo to stay are consider to be peaceful and quiet; it's definately a nice place to have a nice sleep. Over here, you can hear all the vehicles wroom rang sound. It's irritating and annoying especially during the time you are sleeping.
This is just my opinion. There is no right or wrong. You may have a different point of view. It's okay.

My situation for my job is getting better as I'm able to see the direction and I'm able to have the rough idea of my work nature. I'm starting to plan

My situation for my job is getting better as I'm able to see the direction and I'm able to have the rough idea of my work nature. I'm starting to plan my work and try to work my plan. My job task is easy by appearance but it is not easy as ABC. Even much tougher when I have to remind myself to contribute 200% more than the others of 100%; no matter how tired I am. I'm definately undergoing lots of stress and tension over here but I'm still able to manage to control it during my work as I need to be professional; that potrays a positive image and gain the respects of the senior and experience staffs. I need to lead them as I need to assist them from time to time soon. I'm starting to love my job. However, I admit it's not easy as I've been said. There's lots of sweats and bloods for me to go through and start to enjoy it. (hahaha!) Sometimes, I do have a bad mood. (come on, I'm still human with feelings) I'm extremely tired and exhausted. The only thing I wish to have is a nice good sleep to conquer this war. Unfortunately, the place I'm staying now is noisy as you can hear variety of vehicles ring rang wroom. I tried to close the window to minimize the noise, but you can't get the fresh and windy air. I don't mind actually as long as I get a nice peaceful sleeping moment. I will open the window when I'm awake for air circulation. It could not happen as I need to tolerate my housemate as they need the windy air during early in the morning. I had on-going distraction which interrupts my sleeps that annoys me. I couldn't angry or blame but to burst the anger and frustration to myself. I feel like my EQ is exhausting and my blog is the only way I could reload and advance my level of EQ space. God Bless Me!

All I need is Foot Spa! Possible Full Body Massage!

I'm trying to survey any possible method to cure the aching for my foot. It's getting worse as I can see my foot is getting fatter due to swollen. Now I'm trying to use the method to soak my foot into hot water with salt. Yes, I feel better but I still can feel the pain. One thing pops up in my mind, foot spa! Well I never try before as I'm afraid of pain. Now I'm already in pain, which I don't mind to be more painful if it's really works. I'm trying to survey any possible cheap foot spa nearby my living place in Singapore for the first try. Even though you are physically fit, you will still undergo the foot pain because human beings hardly to stand and walk for 10 hours or more without any seating unless you are get used to it. It reminds me of Survivor Shows where the contestants were tested on stabilizing themselves by standing until the ''last man standing''. They couldn't last for 10 hours as they said it's painful. Don't get me wrong that I'm convincing myself to be fit, I just realize when my colleagues, whom quite skinny, or fit, told me that they experienced the same thing as I do. This situation must be told to the people who wish to operate a restaurant with high quality of service in order for them to get ready to face the reality. Surprisingly, I'm slowly building up my muscle on my leg. Thanks to the walking and standing. Thanks to the hectic job training as I can workout with no money charges yet I can earn money from it. However, I'm really need to spend some money for the Spa. It's very important to kill off the tiredness and pain. Let's go to try out Spa!

It's killing me!

Today (4th July 2009) I woke up, i still can feel the ache of my whole body especially my legs. Yet, I still need to walk a distance and take trains to work. I'm at the restaurant for the whole day! Can you imagine yourself standing and walking for more than 10 hours without any seating? Maybe just an hour break for you or precisely less than an hour? You need to carry heavy things here and there? Will you feel the way I feel? This pain leads me to wonder why I need to undergo so much pain and sufferings? Oh yeah, I''ll be in HR Training and Development. My devil tells me there are other opportunity in HR as well which didn't require you to undergo such training as restaurant staffs. My angel tells me that HR requires 2-3years experiences unless you begin with HR assistant for 2-3years with only RM 1200-RM1500. My devil says maybe I'm already die of the pain before I'm able to reach the chance to learn at the office. My angel says this is the challenge given from the God to train me up to be tougher. All this silly and ridiculous thinking keeps playing in my mind. The pain is torturing which leads me to give up totally. The will is the one to keep me going. It's hard to remind myself sweets come after bitterness. Oh my God!!!I feel that my EQ is being tested by the God! Why humans need to be torture this way for them to be tougher? Strange~~~(scratch head)

My first two days of work training in Spore

On the first day of work yesterday, i woke up as early as 6am to catch the 1 hour journey train and reach my reporting office by 8.30am. Nothing much I do for the first day except waiting for few person to assist me and brief me regarding my 6 months training. In between, I waited for long periods which leads me to be very sleepy as I was so bored reading and reading the same materials. Perhaps I'm not used to wake up early after a long holiday break in Malaysia.(hehehe) The most frustrating moment is to rush for my medical check up at 4.15pm and I was being informed to make it at the clinic before 5.00pm. I rushed like a mad person catching train and looking for the clinic place with quick walks. At last I managed to reach the clinic before 5.00pm and I see lots of people wearing the same shirts outside the clinic. I approached one of the people and I was being told that they are closed for the whole day for celebration. At the moment, I feel like killing the person who asked me to rush to the clinic immediately. Do you know why? My first doubt is why the person asked me to come immediately without confirming the clinic is REALLY OPEN that day. However, that's not the reason I feel like killing her. The real reason is, I waste my MONEY for the transportation for NOTHING, which supposingly I can go back home NEARER and CHEAPER! I was appointed to one of the restaurants for my training today. I was briefed for the half day and rush for my medical check up during the afternoon. Soon after, I rushed back to the restaurant to undergo my on the job training. I was blurred and unsure what can I do as I'm exposed to almost everything. Ended up, I''m placed at the bar counter and as a runner for the start. I prepared the drinks for the customers' orders, delivered the meals to the customers, cleared the tables, learn to serve the customers for the ordering drinks, arrange the tables with the right standard, washed the queuing cups and glasses, learning on the opening and closing of the restaurants and more to be named here. I still has a long way to learn and master all the roles in the operating restaurant. Today I'm really SALUTE to ALL the people who works in the restaurants that serve LOTS LOTS LOTS of customers at the SAME time! BRAVO! YOU ARE TOUGH! I still can feel the aching on my legs and whole body for standing and walking the whole day in the restaurants with no seating chance at all. Physically extremely tired. It seems like my bones broke into pieces. It proves one thing, I gotta work out a lot! I'm not fit at all. Here comes the chance for the drastic work out while earning some money. It's not easy to earn this money. (sweat and sigh)